While driving home after looking for looking for my car in the movie theater parking lot for 15-20 minutes (which I had lost AGAIN), I had a thought.

Which Charlie's Angel are you?

I've never seen the old show, so I don't know if there's a better character there for me, and while I definitely do see me-like traits in Drew Barrymore's and Lucy Liu's characters I would have to say hands down I'm a Natalie (Cameron Diaz's character).

Because Natalie's a complete dork.

And she's always laughing when she does something lame.

And she loves to dance, even though she may not be the end all be all best dancer on the planet.

And have I mentioned she's a total dork?

I think the biggest similarity between me and the Natalie character is we both have long flowing blond hair and wear high heels a lot.

I was watching Full Throttle last night and it was just so weird to see myself on the screen. I got the same feeling watching the first one.

But maybe I'm wrong... maybe I'm not quite that giggly?

In other more serious news it's finally happened. My mom couldn't keep her fucking mouth shut and basically told the sibs they could leave if they wanted; my youngest brother is moving to Minnesota on July 18 to live with our ex-dad. My mom knows this won't be permanent because as you may have gathered from this blog my ex-dad sucks ass on a gigantic scale, yet she also made it clear that if he moves, he can't move back.

Now that's supportive parenting.

I worry for my brother, knowing who he's going to live with; the things my ex-dad promises him will not be fulfilled. I worry because ex-dad never really took his meds the way he was supposed to - why would he encourage such behavior in his son? I worry because without either retalin or counseling my brother will have the same problems there as he currently has at home, and ex-dad hasn't been exposed to any of that unpleasantness yet. I'm betting it won't be handled well. It's almost certain that going to live with ex-dad means Justin will meet, hang out with, possibly even end up living with his birth mom who is here in the big wis. Not that getting to know birth mom is wrong; it's that getting to know this particular birth mom is dangerous. The brainwashing will only get worse once he's there.

I don't get a face to face goodbye with my brother. I'll get maybe an email here and there from him unless ex-dad or birth mom decide no more internet because he's in their clutches. I worry that they'll change my brother for the worse. I worry I'll never see him again.

I try not to worry but that just doesn't work.