okay, so here's the thing. when i'm really excited or antsy to do something, lots of other little stoopid things piss me off because i just want friday to get here so i can go to the airport and hang out in the oc with all the brooding boys from chino that hang out in newport, stealing cars and burning down houses and romancing debutantes. here's a list of the truly stoopid things that i've gotten upset about over the past few days:

1) the whole tape thing. you know you got tired of it quick. so did i. which is why i stopped writing about it. until now. but i'm not really writing about it, i'm actually writing about how it pissed me off unnecessarily. i finally did find the right tape - art haus let me return unstickyness and i bought same tape, different brand (infinitely stickier - 3m sure does know it's tape) at race. both art stores are still too small.

2) website code. finally figured it out with the help of one of my old animation teachers from scad. got a huge chunk of it done.

3) moving back to ca in a couple of years. in a couple of years. i have no business getting upset about all the intricacies of finding a job and moving right now. duh.

4) the vote for schwarzie shirt (hey, that'd be a cute slogan above a jpeg stolen from the internet, don't you think?). did the heatseal at work today, put it on at home and got really pissed off at how high i put it. got over that in a while, though, when i pulled the front of the shirt down so the art'd be where it was supposed to and found out if i'd done it low like that it would've been like HELLO ROCKETS! if you know what i mean. you don't? yeah, well, too bad for you. so i'm fine with the shirt now.

5) i was all set to post the lyrics from julie brown's "cuz i'm a blond" tonight because i dyed my hair. but i got all pissed when it was nowhere near as light as i was hoping for. it's not bad. it actually is pretty close to what was on the box. but it's more light light brown than anything. i like it, but better luck next time, i say. (upside to the blond experiment - which will stay put until the next haircut because i kinda like it - is that the final formula for a close enough haircut from leslie has been found. it's wait 9 weeks between haircuts and then ask her to cut off all the haircolor.)

so yeah. i'm stressing out and i don't need to and i know it and the fact that i'm stressing out pisses me off. i think i'm just trying to fit too much in before vacation. i don't know why. i'm dumb. the remedy is to take a couple of days before going back just doing absolutely nothing at night after work but hang out and just chill. this includes watching the oc and nip/tuck tonight.

and to set the record straight for everyone that isn't jen, i personally didn't know anyone in high school that went to tiajuana for the weekend before school was back in session. "you aren't rich, though" was jenn's explanation. makes sense.

if you're watching that fucking horrible "performing as" crap that's on fox right now i feel your pain. because i'm watching it too. because tonight i'm feeling too lazy to go get the remote. plop.

3 days til i get to see hailey's magical musical potty chair in person. when you go to this link, you gotta turn the sound way up on your computer and click on the demo button. personally i think fisher price is out of control.